Constant Canterbury Part 2

Friday morning. An hour's walk to the train and a half hour later I am walking again. Skipping those miles gnaws at me. It's a pleasant enough walk - apple trees in bloom, wooded paths. Pleasant, it seems, just won't cut it today.

I pass the Blean, a large clearing in the woods that slopes up and to the right of me. It looks like nothing now, but two thousand years ago there was a Roman encampment and wooden fortification here. It is believed that it was erected by Caesar's legions as they made their way to the Thames. Interesting. 

We enter the outskirts of Canterbury and, though we have not walked the entirety of the Pilgrim's Way, I insist on entering on that route, avoiding several shorter alternatives. As we come to a crossroads where we must turn right, I am intrigued by the sight of a very old graveyard and church. I wander in and discover a treasure.

It is St. Dunstan's, where in 1174 Henry II removed his shoes, put on a rough woolen pilgrim's shirt, and walked barefoot to Canterbury cathedral in atonement for the murder of Thomas Becket, and where In 1577 Margaret Roper, daughter of Sir Thomas More, was interred along with the head of her father which she had rescued forty-two years before from a pike on which it was impaled outside the Tower of London on orders of Henry VIII. I've read about these events, seen dramas about them. As I stand in the Roper chapel, I see it peopled, not empty. I am ready to experience Canterbury. 

Exiting the church, a block or two ahead of me, a twin-towered fortified gate marks the entrance to Canterbury high street. Minus the modern infrastructure and it isn't hard to see what Chaucer's pilgrims might have seen. Vendor's stands fill the street, obscuring many of the building fronts. Street performers and hawkers, crowds of people sampling wares create a sense of hectic activity. The Wife of Bath would have been in her element. 

I've seen sights like this before but in Canterbury, today, it was special.

A left turn takes me to the cathedral precinct where, after waiting on a line to gain paid admission, I explain that I am only seeking a pilgrim's stamp for my credentials.

The magic words have been uttered. Patrick and I are whisked to a welcome center, no admission required. A young woman, Sarah, notes our packs. "I can tell you've been walking. Where did you start?" I show her our stamped credentials. "And how far are you going?" Holding my forearms out and perpendicular to my body, raising and lowering them slightly, "all the way," I say. Sarah squeals in an exclamative question, "To Rome?!" We nod.

Moments later, our credentials stamped, new ones bearing "peligrino francigeno" are issued, we are invited to attend Evensong, whisked to the cathedral for an admission-free tour, and introduced to a chaplain for a blessing. We wait for the reverend to climb down from the pulpit. He is a slight man but his grey hair, black robes and calm demeanor give him stature beyond the physical. 

"Reverend," I say, "I am not of your faith but I would appreciate your good wishes." He asks me what my faith is and what I believe. We speak for a while, and I tell him why I walk these millennia old paths, what I get out of them. He begins his blessing. He speaks of ancient covenants and promises fulfilled in modern times, of survival in the face of adversity, and of personal understandings yet to be gained. He speaks to me in English and in Hebrew, and I am touched by these accommodations.

What I find constant in Canterbury is its history and its sincere welcome. In the face of that, what are a few miles one way or the other?

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Constant Canterbury Part 1

I've struggled over the last few days. What shall I say about the walk? There's been some rain and lots of mud. There's been beautiful panoramas but little variance. I've met people I'd like to tell you about and perhaps I eventually will.

I am now fourteen days into the walk, more than 200 miles and a channel crossing under my belt. I've already been walking in France for four days. Nothing seemed to rise to the level of blog-worthiness until about six days ago, the day before we entered Canterbury. It wasn't something I could easily write about until now because I am dead tired at the end of the day and I needed some time to understand how I am feeling about things. But I am ready now. 

So I will start with Constant. Every long walk has ups and downs and not just topographic. You deal with it. Sometimes, however, one of those downs threatens the walk itself. So it was in 2012, two days before Leon on the Camino Frances. My blisters had gotten so bad that my boots would no longer fit. I had lost one toenail and another was half ripped off. I could not walk. I could not go on. I was devastated. 

In the hostel that night, I met a Frenchman of African origin. He was a tall, robust man in his mid-sixties looking like fifty. His name was Constant. We spoke for a long time about the Camino. About the experience.  About the lessons one takes away. Finally, Constant looked at me with great seriousness and calmness. "Gary," he said, "disappointment is also a lesson of the Camino."

That didn't save the Camino for me. What saved it was my raison d'être telling me not to come home, to find a hotel room with a bathtub, and to spend the next two days soaking my foot.

That did the trick. On the third day, I walked just five miles, on the next ten. By the fifth day I was doing a slow fifteen, and with the swelling of my foot abating and the second toenail off (surprisingly a lost toenail is much less a problem than one in the process of being lost), I was back on the Camino.

That conversation with Constant, though, came back to me when Patrick and I finally had to face the one thing that threatened to destroy the enjoyment of this trip, and I remembered to accept  disappointment as a lesson, something to be embraced. 

Lodging has been the bane of this hike. The North Downs Way passes through or near few towns with any lodging. Where rooms exist they have been booked. I've spent hours every evening on the internet and the phone attempting to find rooms even if it meant taking a train to a bigger town or city and training back to our stopping point to pick the walk up where we left off. I've been so stressed that the enjoyment and benefits of the day's walks seemed to have evaporated. Everything was out of balance.

We were due to arrive in Canterbury on Saturday. On Thursday we figured we ought to find a place there and for an interim location the night before. No suitable accommodations were available. We'd have to spend hours at the task. I could not deal with it another time.

Finally, I offered the only solution that might bring things back in balance: train ahead by one day's distance and walk to Canterbury from that point, arriving on Friday when lodging was available. 

I was sorely disappointed not to walk the entire distance between Winchester and Canterbury, though we'd still be doing 144 of the 160 miles. Most of you will say this is a minor blip, something that will be lost in the context of a 1,400 mile walk. But for me, having set my sights on walking the entire distance, this was a big disappointment. 

For those who have not felt disappointment of this sort, I must tell you it is not an emotional thing. It is deeply physical. You feel it in the pit of your stomach or high up in your chest. It hurts. It pervades your thoughts. Everything which would otherwise be an excitement is degraded by the fact of having had to give up on an important part of the achievement. I know several good friends who would counsel that this is not failure, but it sure feels like it to me. It's how I am put together. 

This was the correct decision. It eliminated the stress but I still had to deal with the disappointment. Pilgrimage of this sort, though, is a long journey and opportunities to balance the disappointment do arise. Something always seems to come along which pays you back many fold.

And so it did as I arrived in Canterbury.

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Imperfection

Sometimes, the best of times, I find myself in a walking meditation. There is no control over what thoughts will emerge or what connections will occur, but the thoughts I have at these times are almost always important.

Today I thought of a good friend, newly made, who offered this wisdom when he read that I intended to blog: "perfection is an illusion." He knew I would try to write perfect posts and advised instead that I write from the heart.

Neurons flashed. Links were made. I was back at Winchester cathedral, my mind's eye on the floor tiles I had photographed the day before my walk began. They caught my attention then. Now I know why. Their beauty is in their imperfection.

I doubt these tiles are original. If they were, they would be 922 years old. Perhaps they are centuries old replacements, or recent replicas marred to look like those they replaced. What would those tiles tell me if they were perfect? Nothing. They would not tell me of the worshippers, penitents, tourists, and pilgrims, families and solo travelers, wanderers and wonderers, many thousands of them scuffing their way across those tiles or their predecessors in situ, over many hundreds of years. They would not tell me of marriages and births celebrated, or of the deceased remembered. The imperfections give these tiles character, tell of their history, and mark them unique. They are special because they are imperfect.

Everyone and everything each of us holds dearest in this world is imperfect in some way. They are what they are to us because of their imperfections, and often, the imperfections themselves are what we cherish most.

Thank you my friend for reminding me. 

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A day of firsts

Today in Guildford, I woke up to rain. It was my first but it wasn't the only first. I had my first great coffee (at Cafe Nero, the best, their advert claims, this side of Milan), first climb of any significance, first mud, and first blister. Patrick and I trudged up Pewley Hill to the North Downs Way (NDW), viewing rolling hills draped in fog. 

Up to St. Martha's-on-the-hill, where the verger gave us the local history of dukes and the villages they relocated for their convenience, of brick-built Norman churches torn down and reconstructed in stone, as the duke thought a proper Norman church should be. He showed us the grave of Irving Bloomingdale of NY department store fame, who loved the place, and who was buried there when he died nearby, "though there are two stories about his death," the verger gossiped. 

He described how the Pilgrim's Way is a "bit of Romantic fantasy," whereas  the NDW, called by locals the Harrow Way or the Old Way, is Neolithic, and part of the migratory route from the continent that brought human settlement to Britain across the land bridge that would later become the English Channel at the end of the Ice Age. The Way went on to the Southwest, the opposite direction of my travel, past a Stonehenge yet to be built. Those migrants did not create the road - it was an animal track long before humans ever used it. 

The English do love their rain. Katey was a check-in point for an orienteering exercise, and I met many, many pups (my term for any dog that does not attempt to make a meal of me) giving their symbionts their required exercise. One lovely young springer was accompanied by a butterfly-observing woman who kindly gave me and Patrick directions to Dorking after we'd left the NDW to find rooms for the night. 

I met only one other pilgrim along the route, but he was taking his time, enjoying the English weather. 

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The journey begins

My good friend, Patrick, who I met on the Camino Frances in 2012, flew to London to join me on my adventure. We trained it down to Winchester and headed to the cathedral to obtain our credentials, the booklet in which one accumulates stamps from churches, places of lodging, and villages along the trail. 

The verger was surprised and delighted to meet two pilgrims walking to Rome. He arranged our credentials and wished us a blessed journey. Whatever one's beliefs, the good wishes of others are always welcome.

After our stay at the well-worn Ranelegh guesthouse, Thursday morning dawned bright and dry, not a cloud to mar the cerulean sky, despite rain having been forecast. A bracing 3 degrees Centigrade, 37 Fahrenheit.

We walked along wooded footpaths and through wetlands and meadows. We were greeted by nearly newborn lambs, four pigs named Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme (yes, really - there was a sign), and an octet of gambolling young cows that seemed to play a game of tag with us, romping ahead some 20 meters until we caught up with them, repeating their game some four or five times. 

It all seemed quite idyllic until we realized that the GPS track we were using had been constructed, not by walking, but on a map, using many long straight lines. Our path, instead, zigzagged, increasing our distance to a leg-straining 26 miles, eight more than planned. We arrived in Alton, of Jane Austen fame, dragging our sorry selves to a shower, a juicy hamburger, and a couple of welcoming beds. What a pleasure to be on the trail again with aching feet, a sore back, and nothing on my mind outside the cast of my own shadow. 

12 KG plus H20

Packed and ready to go. Its a bit heavier than I would like – just under 12 KG/26 lbs – plus water at another KG per liter. But it does contain consumables, including a pound of trail mix. I will be munching and sipping my way to a lighter load.

My itinerary will follow St. Swithun's Way and the North Downs Way to Canterbury and, from there, the Via Francigena, as documented by Sigeric the Serious circa 990. It was, already at that time, a route that had been followed for several centuries, first referred to as the Lombard Way and later, the Iter Francorum.

My route this year: Winchester - Canterbury - Dover - Calais - Reims - Besançon - Laussanne - Hospice Grand St. Bernard.

Weather forecast: mud!

Off to Heathrow.

Crossing the Pyrenees

One day in 2009, I decided to take a walk. It's lasted a little longer than originally intended: Four month-long journeys, over four years from Lindau Hafen am Bodensee to Santiago de Compostela, another year from Santander to Compostela, last year from Porto. It wasn't until the third year of walking that I considered myself a pilgrim thanks to three little slips of paper I had taken from the cathedral at le Puy en Velay. I thought they were meant to give me encouragement should I flag en-route to St. Jean Pied de Port. I flagged. I read. No ¡Andale! for Gary. No ¡Vamos! for sixty-one-year-old blistered feet, short a few toenails. They were prayers, two in French, one in German, left by those who could not do the walk, asking for the recovery of a loved one stricken by cancer, harmony in the workplace, and peace for a troubled mind. No big requests. No "world peace." Just simple human hopes. I had no choice. I continued to St. Jean Pied de Port. I carried those prayers home with me to California and back again to France the following year. I walked them over the Pyenees, along the Camino Frances, from one end of Spain to the other. It did not matter that my faith is different from those who penned those pleas. I delivered them to where they were intended to be delivered, to the cathedral of St. James. My walk became a pilgrimage on behalf of others, and, by virtue of many hours of walking meditations, friendships made, and moments of synchronicity, a pilgrimage of my own. I guess my walk is not yet finished. (Photo: May 2012 between St. Jean Pied de Port and Roncesvalles)