Thursday, July 9, 2015

Veni, Vidi, Cogitavi

I came to walk. The path I chose was from Winchester to Col du Grand St. Bernard, and next year from there to Rome. Though I am roughly following the roads walked in the tenth century by Sigeric, the Archbishop of Canterbury, I am also wandering through a personal history of events, relationships, and self-perceptions. Sometimes this interior journey takes precedence over the physical one. Sometimes it is the other way round. I guess the two are always interacting in a way that helps me to understand myself better. 

I saw places I had never been and some I had seen before. I saw friends and renewed friendships. I made new friends, even though our encounters were brief and the chances of ever seeing them again are low. If ever I did, I am certain they would act as friends. That's just the way it is when you meet fellow pilgrims, when you share meals, when you clasp their hands to say goodbye, and the clasp turns into an embrace, and you brush your cheek against theirs, and you feel a wind weathered face or a scruff of beard a few days older than it would be if you had not met on the road.

I thought about those people, not everyone, of course, but those with whom the encounter was more than passing. I thought about certain events and how I reacted to them, because they help me understand myself better. I know I will reflect more deeply on them as time goes by.

Monday I walked a path that was physically challenging and my reaction at its completion was entirely predictable, though I did not think about it in advance. I have learned some things about myself on previous walks and it is comforting to know that those insights have predictive capability. I won't share everything with you. I can't. Some things are just too personal, but I do want to tell you about the hike, though I first owe you some closure on the day before.

Between Martigny and Sembrancher, the section advertised as dangerous with vertiginous drops on one side, the journey was that of a rational mind confronting a perhaps irrational fear. I made a mature decision: I took the train. 

Patrick did the walk and I met him in Sembrancher to continue together to Orsières. Of the 8 km, 5 miles, I did not walk, only a few hundred meters, less than a quarter of a mile, might have given me trouble, though Patrick reports that there is now a cable stretched along the offending section. He thinks I could have managed. He might be right. He's been walking with me for well over two thousand kilometers, almost thirteen hundred miles, taking into account the portions of the two walks to Compostela we did together and this year's trek. His brand new iPhone 6+ has taken one too many pictures of churches, cows, and lavoirs, and refuses to take any more, so I have no photos to judge. But I am content with my decision. It shows that, at least on this issue, I have a good understanding of self.



The remainder of the day's hike was picture postcard Swiss. The tourist board would be proud. We climbed several hundred meters to quaint villages and then descended to Orsières, where we would stay the night before beginning the climb to the St. Bernard Pass the next morning.

We did our homework. In preparation for the next day's difficult hike up to the hospice established by Bernard of Menthon around 1050, a climb of 1800 meters, one mile elevation change, over a distance of 30 km, 18.5 miles, we went to the tourist office to check out weather conditions and the expected time to complete the ascent. The office was closed. Not too much was happening in Orsières on an almost 100°F Sunday afternoon. But the ticket office at the train station was open and we received sage advice. With regard to the weather, "God knows. It can be anything." And the duration, "Never did it. Most people leave from Bourg St. Pierre. Maybe ten hours from here to the top."

We took that wisdom and, not surprisingly, sought more. When we first arrived in Orsières, we scoped out restaurants for dinner. Only one was open. We had a cold drink and told them what we were up to. When we returned for dinner, there was a thin but muscled fellow at the bar. He was wearing shorts. His muscles were in his legs. Not very talkative, he did manage to say, "Eight hours if you are strong walkers. Leave at four AM in this weather." This was a man who spoke from experience. Unfortunately, his tone was, "You guys are nuts." Maybe he was right. With each of our 65th birthdays this year, there are times when both Patrick and I think to ourselves, "Why am I doing this?"

The chef at the restaurant, a big Italian from Salerno only slightly taller than he was round, was more accommodating and downright sympathetic. His attitude was that of a kind uncle but his face had "il Dulce's" set-jawed self assurance. He insisted that I was Italian, though I denied it throughout my Buonasera's and Molto bene's. I think that's one of the reasons, along with our need to carb-up for the walk, that he delivered two plates over brimming with pasta and sent us off with a Buona Fortuna. 

We stayed at the parish pilgrim refuge, foam rubber mats and somewhat pungent pillows not helping it gain a two star rating any time soon, though the view I had of the church tower at night and the guitar music of Ottmar Liebert I streamed from my iPhone eventually got me to that zen space from which sleep eventually comes.

Alarms were set at four. I was up a half hour earlier. We left the refuge at 4:45 and within the space of 100 meters we had lost the path. GPS and our headlights to the rescue, quiet roads and farm tracks, sometimes gentle but consistently sloping, took us quickly above Orsières as dawn began to illuminate the sky. 


We made good time and gained much elevation, then discovered we had missed another turn. This did not bode well: two errors within the first sixty minutes on the easiest part of the path. And we were losing time. We needed a lot of distance behind us before the sun struck us full and the day began to bake.


We could have continued forward, dead reckoning our way back to the track, but we had agreed that in the mountains it was too dangerous to deviate from the signed path, so we backtracked to where we had erred and promptly gave up one third of the elevation we had gained earlier in the morning. We descended to the river Dranse and followed it until a weir blocked our path. Water poured over its top, only an inch or so of depth on a concrete wall, and a discernible but extremely narrow and steep dirt trail rising from the other side. I could not believe this was what was intended, but, at the same time, I was evaluating how I might make the crossing. 

It needs be said, the Swiss are diligent about signing their trails, but it is impossible to keep up with what must be many thousands of signs throughout the country. Before tackling the weir, we did one last search for some indication that the path was elsewhere and were relieved to discover a "pedestre" sign hidden in tall weeds. I was reassured that we were following a pedestrian path and not a mountain path, what I know as a bergweg from my experience in German speaking Switzerland. Those are blazed red and white and entail a much greater set of difficulties. So long as we were not on a bergweg, how difficult could it be? Not difficult at all – for a goat! This pedestrian path was hardly the width of a boot, had sections with at least a 60° slope on which it was impossible for dirt to pack down and adhere, razor switchbacks, and boot slip marks everywhere. There were rocks, so it was possible to scramble over the sliding dirt to gain a foothold on a stone, then pirouette to follow the path's changed direction. We gained 160 meters, 500 feet, in a bit more than a kilometer, 2/3 of a mile.

Despite these difficulties, we made good time. At major way points, the Swiss mark their signs not with distance but the expected time to the indicated destination. By 8:30, we had covered the indicated 4 hours to the break-off to Bourg St. Pierre, fifteen minutes ahead despite our errors. The sun had not yet crested the mountains. The valley was in shade, the temperature warm but comfortable. We were almost half way to our destination, the sign indicating that the Col was just under five hours away. 

We had to decide whether to branch off to Bourg St. Pierre for supplies and lose a half hour to get to the village plus time to shop. The delay would mean we would not reach the tree line until later in the day and we wanted to minimize our time walking in direct sun. We judged we had enough food and water and moved on. 

Later that afternoon we would realize that we were perhaps dangerously close on supplies and had made some bad choices. I had packed 3 liters of water equal to 3 kilos, 6.5 pounds. Patrick did not tell me he had only packed 1.5 liters. We had a can of tuna, some hearty bread, and a pint of cherry tomatoes for lunch. That turned out to be far too dry. It would stick in our throats. I still had most of the fresh fruit I bought two days before, a peach, two bananas, two apricots. Patrick may have had a piece of fruit or two. I don't recall. He had walked 8 km, 5 miles, more than I the day before and may have needed the nourishment then. We had already eaten into our store of dried figs, our primary source of fast sugar. Patrick had two left. I had eight. I still had a couple of handfuls of a simple trail mix made of mixed nuts and raisins. At the end of the day, all we would have left is two figs and a half liter of water.

After the Bourg St. Pierre turnoff, the trail sloped up, leveled off and turned to the left. The sun crested. It started to get warm. Ten minutes in, Patrick started to flag. His feet were heavy. He is usually the stronger walker and rarely shows any sign of fatigue, though in the last few days, under the searing heat, there were a couple of times when I held up better. Maybe I was drinking more water. Today, we both were walking on five hours of sleep, at most. That also had to be a contributing factor in the fatigue Patrick was feeling now and I would feel later. We ate Patrick's last two figs. There was a broken bench a bit further along and we sat for a while. I ate a banana and some trail mix. Patrick had tomatoes. We both had water bladders with drinking tubes, so we were consuming water the whole way as needed. Patrick would tire another time and need some fuel. I was doing well, though by the end of the day our situations would reverse. 

When the figs and other nourishment kicked in, we took the next major upslope well but we gave up most of that elevation as we descended to the concrete face of a dam and then had to regain what we lost as we climbed to the height of the reservoir's enclosure. We walked the length of the lake and then along some of the streams that feed it, a few more kilometers, first on a dirt road. Then crossing a roaring stream, the trail climbed to an abandoned stone building. But there are compensations. Just after, a dripping falls sprayed the trail and gave us an impromptu shower. 

We had completed about three quarters of the walk, perhaps two to two-and-a-half hours to go, but we were now in full sun, well above the tree line. We were both greedily drinking water as we walked. The mountains around us were hard, unsoftened by forest, spectacular.











We would lose the trail one more time. A way point sign indicated a directional change, which led, eventually, to a dead end. We had missed something. Our GPS indicated a track to the right of our direction of travel and higher than we, but there was no evidence on the ground to suggest how to reach it or where the trail might be. Finally we spotted a yellow diamond on a rock, a blaze for the trail, and, next to it, an eroded section of dirt making a near vertical face about ten feet tall. Patrick was first to find some footholds. He went up and saw the trail. I followed. 

We were about six and a half hours into the walk and had covered just over half of the vertical.  Patrick suggested we stop for lunch and we enjoyed relaxing at altitude, surveying the ascent we had made thus far. The lunch, though, was not satisfying. The tuna, direct from the can on coarse bread, dried our throats and we used up water to get it down. The sun beat on us, and, though the temperature was not as high as it had been in the valley the day before, the heat, the wind, and the altitude had a dehydrating effect.

From then on we walked continuously uphill, sometimes shallow, sometimes steep, on rock and scrub paths, the kind I was used to from prior hikes in the Alps and Patrick from hikes in the Basque Country and Corsica. At every turn and every top, we hoped we would catch a glimpse of our destination. St. Bernard had tamed the devil, a metaphor for the mountains that ravaged and humbled medieval travelers making the same climb we were attempting today, but his hospice continued to elude us. 

Then Patrick ran out of water. I heard gurgles coming from his water hose. That's when he told me he had only packed a liter and a half thinking there would be a village or two along the way where we could refill from a fountain. Every Swiss village, it seems, has a public fountain with potable water, but no village, no water. I still had a liter left and started sharing with Patrick, but now it seemed likely that I had not been drinking enough or that the altitude was taking its toll on me. My legs were lead. I had trouble lifting my feet and had to choose lower lying rocks on which to make footfall, or halt my walk and deliberately lift my foot to a larger rock's upper surface as if I was climbing stairs.

There were some actual stairs cut into the rock, a short span, part of the Alpis Poeninas, completed, I think, by Augustus in the first century AD. The road was also famously used by Napoleon in 1800 as he moved more than 40,000 troops along with supporting cannon, munitions and supplies across the Alps to lift the Austrian siege of French controlled Genoa. I was not, however, at that moment, thinking of either Augustus or Napoleon. My thoughts were on a snow field up ahead and the fact that I had not yet seen our destination. 

Earlier in our walk, when approaching hill cities in France, like Laon and Langres, I was able to see them miles off and it seemed I would never close the distance. Here I longed to see the destination no matter how far away it still might be.


Patrick seemed to have revived and was walking slowly but steadily. I was making progress but stopping more often then he. We reached the snow field and Patrick stepped onto it, breaking the crust, sinking in to his calf. With the weather as warm as it was, the snow was incapable of supporting our weight and it was still pretty deep, as we could tell from the height of its face. It was about two feet there but inestimable any where inside its perimeter.

We had to go around, perhaps fifty meters further than a direct path would have taken us, but in making that extra distance, when I turned round to the right, above I could see a cross and a building, the hospice at Col du Grand St. Bernard.


I then had no doubt that we would make it, but it would still take some time. The building I saw gave a deceptively small appearance. All I could see, as it turns out, was the top floor of a 4 story building, plus sloped roof. That last pitch was somewhat more than fifty meters, 150 feet, of elevation. It was not going to be taken at a sprint. And there was one further snow field to circle around, smaller than the first, but it also entailed crossing broad but shallow streams of melt and mucky sod from where the water had accumulated.


But we did make it. We took that last step from the trail, our first step onto the main road, together. We hugged and high-fived. A motorcyclist who was stopped on the road to admire the view saw us crest and when we hugged he smiled. That man knew what it was to accomplish something. After 46 days of walking, more than twelve hundred kilometers, just over 750 miles, we made it. 

Patrick is a man of faith. He felt a hand from above had lightened his load over the last several kilometers.


I felt a lump rise in my throat. Finishing something I have set out to do, accomplishing something difficult that I have set out to achieve, turns out to be a very emotional event for me. There are very complex, personal reasons for it that go back a long time, to my childhood. I never understood this until I started walking but walking gave me the time and space to reflect on it. It was on my walk to Santiago de Compostela that I arrived at certain understandings about what drives this in me. I began to remember the formative events that led to this aspect of my personality. Every year since, more of why I am who I am reveals itself to me. 

This is why I walk. 

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Tuesday, July 7, 2015

I tossed it

I wrote a new post. And then I tossed it. I felt I owed you something because I left you on the old Roman road, the hot and dusty Via Agrippa, a road that Archbishop Sigeric must certainly have travelled in the mid-900's on his way to Rome. The only consolation I gave you was the hospitality of people like the Sognys, who open their homes with no expectations of recompense. That was many days and many miles ago.

I was going to tell you about the days just before Besançon, when I walked through rolling hills of pasture, meadows and woodland, climbed to several small hill towns, and traversed many farming villages, some with just a few houses and crofts. The hiking was easy and the landscapes gentle.
These were days when I never started out particularly early in the morning, but was usually enroute while the day was still quiet and young. I walked in near silence on wooded paths with white butterflies dancing around my ankles and through fields of high grasses that left dew tracks on my knees, only the sound of birdsong to break the morning stillness. 
And I was going to tell you about the days after Besançon, when I hiked in the Jura Mountains. I made the long climb out of Besançon to heights opposite and above its famed Citadel, walked the plateau, and then descended into the valley of the Loue, below granite cliffs and wooded valley walls, to Ornans, home of painter Gustave Coulbert. I walked upstream along that now gentle river for a day and a half, passing old villages with houses built backing onto the water, remnants of water wheels and mill races scattered along the way, and measuring gauges showing that the river had, at times, turned into a devastating deluge. 
I was planning to describe how I climbed the gorge carved by that river, sixteen hundred feet, about the height of a 150 story building, as the path followed the ever thinning but increasingly wild flow, churning pools and thundering cataracts in dappled sunlight. The trail was narrow at times, with a precipitous drop hidden by trees or ferns or bushes. Footholds were sometimes tricky, tree roots frequently obstructed the passage, scree from the canyon walls littered the trail, and occasional seasonal tributaries formed rocky pools which had to be navigated stone by stone, careful of their water slicked faces. 

I was going to relate how, at one point, intently focused on avoiding a tree root jutting from the difficult path, I failed to notice a tree limb, about three inches in diameter, severed from its tree and obstructIng a third of the the trail. It clubbed me in the collarbone, the force bringing me to a half seated, half kneeling position, a loud "oof" escaping me at the surprise and power of the impact, a large purple contusion remaining as a souvenir.

But I never intended to write a travelogue. So I tossed it. I am too focused on other things. 

I've walked more than seven hundred miles since leaving Winchester. A few days ago, I crossed into Switzerland north of Laussane and exited the Jura. It is hot and has been for a number of days. And I've been walking past my limit. Well, I guess not, I am still walking, but definitely past my preferred maximum distance of about eighteen miles. There have been too many twenty plus days and too many just shy of twenty five. 
Crossing the plateau from the foot of the Jura to Le Mont and then down to the lake at Lausanne was one of those long days, done in 90°F heat. And following that, the walk from Montreaux to Villeneuve and then along the upper Rhone to St. Maurice was another, but it was hotter, 37°C, 99°F. 

Patrick and I found one restaurant accessible from the trail. I greeted the owner with a plea, in halting but perfect French, according to Patrick, though I doubt it, to allow two obviously baked and withered pilgrims to eat their packed sandwiches in his establishment. We purchased cold drinks and asked that our empty water bladders be filled with cold water from the tap, to which the waitress added several scoops of ice cubes, and whispered to every customer in the dining room that these two were headed for Rome. We did not bother to mention that it would be a two year adventure.

After 44 days of walking, I am tired. Just two more days but the two biggest challenges of this trip are directly in front of me, the first psychological, the second, physical. 

Tomorrow, I am supposed to walk a section of trail people have called dangerous. Between Martgny and Orsières, the trail exits the woods. At that point, it is narrow, not much wider than the width of a man's shoulders and it hugs the valley wall, on one side rock, on the other, nothing. I've done a reasonable amount of walking in the Alps. In the four years I lived in Zurich, I was often on trails with nothing but air on one side. I don't mind being high up so long as I have ground on all sides of me, enough to lay flat and hug that terra firma. So if the path is as wide as I am tall, I can deal with it by hugging the uphill. But I know what will happen as soon as I exit the safety of the trees on a path as narrow as this one is advertised to be. It will be like looking one of the Gorgons square in the face. I will freeze. I mean absolutely.

I've been here a few times before. Not here physically, but in similar circumstances. I only managed to defrost and make it across once. It was the first time and may have been the event that triggered my fear of heights. 

It was a snow covered ridge line, only about twenty yards long, nothing on either side but air. It was late in the day and if I went back I'd still be on the mountain after nightfall. Not an option. The valley on either side of the ridge was socked in, puffy cloud tops somewhere above me. I was walled in with cloud so I couldn't actually see all that nothing. The only way I could move was slowly, in small steps, eyes on my feet, peripheral vision voluntarily shut down. I had to sing marching songs from my Army advanced infantry training to keep my mind off the predicament:

"My girl's got big eyes
Just like two pizza pies
Gee, Mom, I wanna go ho-o-ome. 

My girl's got big hips
Just like two battle ships
Gee, Mom, I wanna go ho-o-ome."

My cousin Mike will understand both the predicament and the solution. He, too, has a fear of heights, and he, too, did his AIT at Fort Polk, Louisiana, not quite affectionately called "Tigerland," in the days they were shipping treasure off to be lost in the jungles of Southeast Asia. And while the lyrics I sang on that snowy ridge and in Lousiana are PI (politically incorrect, for my European friends), they and worse are exactly what we nineteen- and twenty-year-olds sang as we marched in formation that summer of 1970, and we sang them louder when we marched passed the WAC barracks. Why they would help me get across a snowy mountain ridge, I have no idea.

Just for the record, Carol was with me on that bridge of snow. She made it across without a second thought.

You can lay odds on me if you wish, but the fix is in. This trip is about knowing myself. With regard to this phobia, I do. I know it would be foolish to try this path as tired as I am, carrying many kilos on my back, in this heat, especially when there are other safer trails to get me to Orsières. It has, though, taken me weeks to come to this conclusion. I count it a victory of a mature mind. 

The second challenge, the last day of my walk, is the 5,180 foot climb from Orsières to the Hospice at the Col du Grand St. Bernard, where the Roman road, the Alpis Poenina, crossed between what is now Italy and Switzerland. I've done climbs of three thousand feet before when I was living in Zurich. The last time I hiked one of those was probably seven years ago, not at age 65, which I will be in a week. And I've never done one of this magnitude. 

So I am wary of the climb. I question whether it is too much for me. Things go wrong in the mountains. Small errors multiply: a bad foothold, a sudden unexpected change in weather, not drinking enough water, just plain fatigue.  

It will be a long hike with few opportunities to bail out. My GPS track indicates it is a 13.5 mile walk. It will be longer. The distance is measured as straight lines between waypoints. Since the path is hardly ever straight, the actual distance is longer than the routing indicates. The problem is compounded in the mountains where sinuous paths and switchbacks add far more actual distance. There is one small village directly on the path during the first half of the walk. It has no services. There is a larger community about halfway but it is a half hour off the trail. There is nothing on the second half, though a mile or so before the end of the hike, the road leading over the Saint Bernard pass crosses the path once. 

OK. So there it is. I am actually excited about the climb, but I am concerned.

That's what I have been thinking about these last few day. That's why I tossed the post. Too trivial. Writing it was really just an exercise to try and think about something else. It didn't work. 

Friday, June 19, 2015

Hospitality along the old Roman Roads

Much of the "official" Via Francigena follows existing GR trails, the Grand Radonnée, the long distance hiking paths of France. Sigeric's actual path, the roads the Archbishop of Canterbury walked, or more likely rode, on horse or in wagon, a millennia ago are not known for certain. His manuscript that describes the Via Francigena provides only the names of the "maisonettes," the cities or villages, in which he stayed but we can assume he used the highway system of his time, the Roman roads, as much as he could. In many cases, those roads are gone, paved over, some by major, high traffic arteries. In other cases, they are simply lost, covered by centuries of change. It makes sense, therefore, to use the existing trail system. 

But if you are willing to move off the "official" route, you can find remnants, even long sections, of road Sigeric must certainly have traveled. Some stretch tens of miles. These old Roman roads were constructed by Marcus Vipsanius Agrippa on orders from Octavius for the extension and maintenance of empire. They carried legionnaires to the furthest outposts of Roman influence and food and supplies back to the Roman heartland.
When you find a remnant of the Via Agrippa, you know it. It is usually unwaveringly straight for miles on end, with few major climbs or descents. Walking on that road, covered only by dirt, or clay, or gravel, especially one that runs between two locations mentioned by Sigeric, you can be quite certain that you are walking the path that the Archbishop of Canterbury took on his way to Rome to receive the symbols of his office, one-thousand years ago.

I walked those paths. In the last several days, stretching from a bit just after Chalons-en-Champagne, through Coole, Brienne-les-Vielles and Donnement, to a ways before Bar-sur-Aube, I walked  thirty miles and more of such remnants of the Via Agrippa. These roads are not curious relics. They remain an integral part of village life. When you ask a farmer or a townsman how far it is to a certain location, you are likely to be given a distance followed by "par voie Romaine," by the Roman road.

On this portion of the Via Agrippa there is a feeling of vast emptiness. Fields of wheat and soya stretch into the far distance. Few trees break the horizon. Occasionally, there are copses of wind turbines.  A hog farm announces itself by its stench a half mile in all directions. Otherwise, nothing. 

I walked these roads under clear sky and direct sun, in temperatures near 30°C, 85°F. There was no shade. Even when the road followed the course of a river, and riparian varieties lined the water's banks, the road was in sunlight. The Romans cut these roads into the flanks of the hills, above the flood plain, to assure they would be passable at all times of the year. Shade never reached the stretches I walked. 

I set the alarm on my phone for every two hours to remind myself to apply sunscreen. When the lotion dried, I applied insect repellent, though those large fly-like insects whose bite results in a nearly hemispheric puss filled blister an inch in diameter "ne parle pas DEET." I've been bitten twice in the last six years of my walking. It isn't pleasant.

Here you must play tricks with your mind to help the miles pass. I estimated the tangential velocity of wind turbine wing tips and counted primes. I remember reading that the physiology of walking long distances makes analytical thought difficult and slow. These exercises, therefore, are ideal for passing time. Eventually, I can trick myself into a stream of self-sustaining thought that numbs me to what my physical self is experiencing. But walking these roads, when I finally resurfaced to awareness and checked my GPS, only another mile, or less had passed. 

Each day Patrick and I search for a good place to have lunch. Frequently, we ask our hosts to pack us a sandwich, because even if we pass through a small town or two, these "trous," a French expression for a nothing of a place, have no commercial activity, no tabac, no bar, no boulangerie. Nothing. Sometimes we forget to ask and have to make do with dried figs and trail mix. 

On the Via Agrippa you might get lucky and find a road intersecting the old Roman road. It may lead to a nearby town. But when you are walking 20 or more miles a day you hesitate to make even a small excursion from the trail. Other times, the unpaved section crosses a small village and if you are really lucky there will be a bench. We were lucky only once in the three days we walked the unpaved sections of Via Agrippa. 

I look for a log, a rock, something other than the road to sit on, but instead we have to settle for a small patch where the gravel has been worn flat so the discomfort of sitting on a hard surface is not exacerbated by sharp edges cutting into my bottom. I use my pack as back support and eat quickly. We move on. 

As the day progresses to its end we quicken our pace, anxious for an end to this section of trail. 

As the highest official of the church in England, Sigeric likely was received with great hospitality when he stopped for the night. His trip aimed for stops in the important centers of church activity: cathedrals, abbeys, and monasteries. If he had to resort to inns or private homes, the hospitality may have been less grand, but still to the highest levels available within the means of his hosts.

Today, there are remnants not only of the roads Sigeric traveled, but of the hospitality he received. Thus far on this walk, I've stayed in hotels, B&B's, chambre d'hôtes, and gites, in cities, the smallest of villages, on farms and in private homes. You cannot really know how it will be in advance, though you hope you will be fortunate and stay in one of those few places where you are greeted like a friend, enjoy a really great dinner, and have interesting conversation with hosts who are genuinely interested in learning about you, where you come from, what you think about events. In return, they share the stories of their lives with you. 

Patrick and I were lucky enough to find Roseline and Eric on a farm in the Haute-Marne. I am guessing Roseline's age at 50; I know Eric is 52. She still has that coquettish smile and body language of a young woman and a vivacious attractiveness. He started working the family farm at age 16, a farm that's been in the family for 300 years; at 19 he was running it.

Eric is now an organic farmer but his passion is astronomy. When he delivers papers at scientific conferences, other speakers introduce themselves with their PhD's and CV's. Eric introduces himself as "Farmer." 

I asked him how he became interested in astronomy. Eric is left handed and, as a boy his teacher forced him to write with his right hand. He wasn't good at it so he was punished, forced to stay late at school. Walking home at night looking to the sky, he wished he was up there, not down here. The punishments may have been misguided but they gave Eric astronomy.
That evening we drank homemade aperitifs, ate beef, potatoes, and green beans that Eric had raised and farmed, and spoke about genetically modified seed, his fascination with viewing galaxies, and his love of introducing children to astronomy. 

Another evening, we were the guests of Madame Viviene Jaqueminet. Patrick calls Madame Jaqueminet a brave mother. She lost her husband to cancer when she was 32, he 36. She raised her family and now she welcomes pilgrims into her home. 
This kindly woman loves meeting new people and tells us of a pilgrim who carried a tambour on his walk and played it after dinner. Another pilgrim, who until then had not really engaged in conversation, jumped to his feet with bravos, disclosed that he was an orchestra conductor, and the evening continued with conversation and music. Evenings like these are what Madam Jaqueminet lives for.

The night we were there, Madame Jaqueminet served us cuisse de dinde, (leg and thigh of turkey), slow cooked in champagne for a day and a half. Patrick and I each had a room in the house she's lived in since her marriage. 
And one evening we were the guests of Monique and Jean-Pierre Sogny of Coole (there are a lot of Sogny's in Coole, including the mayor). The Sogny's are of that special breed of host who open their private homes to shelter and feed pilgrims, not for financial gain, but purely for the pleasure of doing good works and for conversation with interesting people. These special places are "donativos" where one pays what they are able, without even a soupçon of what may be expected. Nothing is expected. 

We slept in two bedrooms of their modern three bedroom home. They served a simple farm dinner: a salad of lettuce and tomato I saw Monique cut from her garden, steamed potatoes in their skins along with rillettes de porc and pate de ferme made from the hogs they raised, a fine bio rosé from Bergerac and a red Côtes du Rhône. At about 9:00, when we had already been eating and conversing for more than an hour, two Italian pilgrims on bicycles arrived, Lorenza and Mateo from Trieste. After a first stern look from Jean-Pierre for the late hour and the fact that all the bedrooms were taken, he and Monique rolled out a large air mattress in their laundry room and welcomed the new arrivals.

The next morning, as I was about to place some bills in the little porcelain purse kept on an eye level shelf in the kitchen, Monique cautioned me, "Do not give too much," she said in her good English.  "We do not do this for the money. We are donativo."

At the end of a day's walk, Patrick and I hope for a warm shower, a decent meal, and a comfortable bed. Sometimes we get lucky and find much more.

One need not be Sigeric to find great hospitality on the old Roman roads that are part of the Via Francigena. 

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Monday, June 15, 2015

Communitas

Spring finally arrived in France in the few days before I entered the champagne vineyards near Reims. It came in two incarnations. The weather turned sunny and warm, and the communitas that both Patrick and I had been missing became the focus of this portion of my adventure. 
Anthropologists Victor and Edith Turner, in two works, one on ritual and the other on Christian pilgrimage, identified two characteristics that I experienced as key elements of my own walks, liminality and communitas. I won't do either concept justice here, but let me give you my definitions, the way I've internalized them. Liminality describes the sense that once you begin a ritual, a rite of passage, for example, or a pilgrimage, you are no longer the person you were before you began and you are not yet the person you will become when you have completed the ritual. If it is a rite of passage from boyhood to manhood, while the participants are engaged in the ritual they are no longer boys but are not yet men. In the kind of pilgrimage I engage in, the passage is more subtle and less predictable. But I can say with certainty that on every pilgrimage I have undertaken, I have learned things about myself that alter my self-perception and understanding. I return home different. 

Communitas describes the community of those engaged in the ritual. In some tribal cultures, participants are removed from the family structure that was their support, and enter a community of those undertaking the ritual. In pilgrimage, people of different backgrounds, nationality, economic class, and even religion, form a community through the leveling process inherent in miles of hiking, sharing of hardships, sleeping in the most basic of accommodations, sharing food, and developing relationships that could not develop elsewhere. I have little doubt that all who have undertaken the Compostela pilgrimage will name community as the single most impactful factor of their pilgrimage experience.

So it is about people. And Patrick and I were heartened when we met our first fellow pilgrim, Wilma, a teacher from Lithuania. Our pilgrimages intersected for the briefest of times, one day, but knowing she was sharing the same road was warmth enough. 
Wilma was sitting on her sleeping pad on the side of a quiet country road, tending her blistered feet. She saw a man with a backpack, me, and asked where I was from, where I started, and where I was going. "San Francisco, Winchester, Rome," I answered. "Vilnius, Canterbury, as far as I can get before my vacation is over," Wilma replied. 

We would not of expected it of her, but Wilma put Patrick and me to shame. She  was making 40 to 45 km a day, 24 to almost 30 miles, sometimes 1.5 times what we were aiming for, though we have had our share of 20+ mile days. She was a pretty slow walker but made her distance by walking from sunup to sundown before finding a place to lay her sleeping bag or pitch her tent. 
Further along, a bit of communitas of a different sort. Along the road I passed an elderly but spry man looking forward to his 90th birthday later this year. He was standing in his driveway watching the world go by. He saw me coming. His eyes locked mine. There was no doubting I would stop and chat in my broken French. He asked if I was a pilgrim and where I was from. I told him that I was and that I was American. His face lit up. His eyes sparkled. It was 1944. The Liberation. His excitement could not be contained. I told him my father had been in France in '45. In a sure sign of friendship, he opened the big  barred driveway gate and called to a young woman back in the house, 40-ish, a Belgian, his aide who looked after him. "Américain!" he called to her. It could not have meant much to her. She was friendly but her age told that she could not share the depth of emotion that was evident in her charge. Or in me. Remember when Americans were respected and appreciated? How far we have come.

And now to the main point. I made some really good friends on my six prior years of pilgrimage. We promised to keep in touch and we have, intermittently. But they all live in Europe and if I am ever to see them again, I have to take the initiative. So I took a break from my walk and set out to see some of the people with whom I've shared an incredible experience. 

I've already told you about Beatrice and Paul and my detour to Dunkerque. Well, my wife, Carol, joined me for the last couple of weeks as we spent time with some of those people I've been telling her about. We spent several days with two really sweet people, Eva and Gösta, on their farm outside of Valberg, Sweden.   And a few more days with my good friend Nicolas, with whom I must have walked and shared dormitory rooms for at least two weeks in 2011, and his wife Lulu, whom he met that same year and with whom I also walked. We stayed with them at Lulu's parent's vacation home on the Bretagne coast. Their two young children, Paul and Louis, and Lulu's parents were also there.
Nicolas and I shared memories and some of the meaningful conversations that had marked our friendship on the road. I am so happy to see how life is working out for them. 

And then to Paris, where Carol and I were well looked after by Jean-Michel, who was Patrick's walking companion when I met him in 2012 and with whom I walked from Porto to Compostela last year, and by his wife Catherine, who is a lovely, kind woman, and who I met in Compostela when she joined Jean-Michel there after his walk. I caught up with Jean-Christophe, another Porto walking companion, and met his wife Areth at a dinner in Versailles hosted by Patrick and Colette. 

And Carol and I had dinner with our long term good friends Barbara and Jean-Philippe, full of vitality as always. So really very good to see them.

So the cold I experienced as I walked through the battlefields of the Somme has been eclipsed by the warmth of friendships renewed and maintained. 

I am ready to start walking again. 

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Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Regardless of loss

I did not see those words, "regardless of loss," until late in the day as I approached Peronne, but the phrase felt like the chill I had been feeling since I started out that morning. In Bapaume, the only tabac open early for a cup of coffee had been the one near the bus depot and opposite a gas station. I had dressed in my everyday hiking gear but the chill wind was too much for me to take. I grabbed my rain pants and headed to the WC to do a quick change. No rain was expected but I needed the rainwear to cut the wind. I added another two layers to the long sleeve hiking shirt I was wearing. My only hope for real warmth was to down some coffee and get walking. Neither helped. 

I told Patrick that I was missing not having met other pilgrims, and how walking the Via Francigena on my own would have been difficult. The Camino Frances doesn't present that particular challenge. There are tons of other pilgrims there, though it is easy to be alone in one's thoughts whenever one wishes and sometimes to be alone in body as well. Patrick is good company and a good friend, but we both miss being part of a community of walkers as we were in Spain. 

It wasn't just the just the chill and the low, slate-grey overcast, nor the aloneness. In the parts of France we had been walking through since Calais, there is a consistent narrative, towns and villages built and destroyed, rebuilt and destroyed again. The story there is written in conflicts with the English or Spaniards, with Flanders or Burgandy. To be sure, the two world wars also took a major toll. Even more recently, the destruction is economic and technological in origin. It is a region dotted by huge piles-become-hills and ridge-lines of coal mine tailings, now grown over with brush and trees to the point that they look like a part of the natural landscape.
From the time I left Arras, however, and especially as I walked from Bapaume to Perrone, the insanity of the Great War presented itself more acutely. You should be warned that my factual knowledge of WWI is limited. But this blog is about how I feel, and the few facts I have were engaged, that day, by that emptiness in the gut I got as I passed sign after sign —"South African Cemetery," "Australian Cemetery," "Manchester Cemetery." There are large national cemeteries in the area, but these burial grounds are smaller, at least the ones I saw are, memorials to a few dozen men, more personal, more heart churning than thousands upon thousands of white slabs or crosses. The small rectangularized arrows printed in neat sans serif, off white on green background, melded with the landscape in the same way those piles of tailings did, far too natural for my sensibilities.
Then I came to a sign, black on white, a German cemetery. The letters just felt harsher. That is not to say the German war dead do not deserve the same respect as the French and Commonwealth soldiers. Most, like their Ally counterparts, were not war makers, just more meat for the grinder. That sign, especially situated in front of the junked mechanical icon, that descendant on a different branch of the evolutionary tree from the Wotan A7V that saw action in 1918, a few dozen as armored fighting vehicles, several dozen more as troop carriers, was in no way natural.

On this part of the front, the region of the Somme, between 1914 and 1918, the German line advanced a mere 25 kilometers as measured by my thumbnail on a map I found a day or so later. How many bodies per kilometer, I wonder, in the taking and the losing.

My thoughts were lost in loss as I came upon two Aussies and a Brit walking the fields, tracing the movements in the Battle of Mount Saint Quentin, in the larger battle for Peronne. We chatted a bit. Not much about the war, but our conversation was quiet, respectful of where we were and what happened there. Not 100 meters after I left them, I came across a printed panel describing the action that took place there and the orders that had come down to take that strategic high ground overlooking Perronne, "regardless of loss."
I guess there are two ways to take that statement. A combat unit told that the only recourse for failure was death might not waver in the battle. They might understand the importance of their mission and vie more courageously for success. But that day, all I could think of was the other interpretation. What futility to know that if you were the last man standing you had better not stand for long despite the impossibility of odds. What hubris, to stand at the big chess board, moving men like game pieces, sacrificing pawns for a grander strategy. As it turns out, the Aussies won an important victory that day. As I understand it, they took the high ground and fought off German counterattacks. There were heroic actions by individuals, but there were also losses. 

The chill did not leave me all day.

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Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Omnes viae romam perducunt

I was amped coming out of Canterbury, disappointment over the lost miles evaporated, the only residue being what I noted in my journal, more intense and personal than what was posted on my blog. 

After Canterbury, I wanted to post something really upbeat and I owe it to some friends, who you will meet shortly, to do just that. But the mood turned a couple of days ago and I need to get that off my chest as well. So here is a quick summary of what went on in between. 


The first signs for Via Francigena reinforced my excitement. No longer heading to Canterbury - been there, done that. We are going to Rome. 


We take a path into Dover that avoids the muddied fields made squiggy under foot (real Brit-speak I picked up in Oxford a few years ago) by a sudden afternoon  downpour and enter Dover beside it's great fort overlooking the city. After descending to the city, we turn left and track beside white chalk cliffs fronted by transient hotels and boarding houses. Not surprising. The ferry terminal is just to the right. For some, their first footsteps in Britain are to a home in these ramshackles.  

The ferry is late due to bad weather over the channeI. I do not love boats of any kind, and the slight roll I feel as I walk across the cabin is not reassuring. Nor is there much to see in the haze that could distract me. But as we approach port, the sun peaks his nose, as Patrick would say, and voila!, France.

Our particular road to Rome takes us on an excursion to Dunkerque. Beatrice and Paul, who I met on the Camino Frances, meet the ferry. I introduce them to Patrick, and they open their home to us.


I met Beatrice and Paul early in my walk from Saint-Jean-Pied-de-Port to Compostela. They had already been walking a month. I did not know them but I shared some wine with them. Not so unusual on the Camino. I didn't see them again until a few days before my arrival in Compostela. At first, we did not recall having met earlier, though Paul, who has an excellent memory, eventually recalled the shared Rioja. For reasons of some walking slower and some faster, I had separated from the little community I was part of during my transit as they had from theirs. In this hostel, three days from our objective, we were each cooking our dinner and were left to eat alone. On a very small three sided table attached to a wall, we crowded together and ate, made conversation, and filled an emptiness we each were feeling. I shared an orange. Beatrice tells me she recalls that moment to this day.  Every time she eats an orange, she says, it tastes sweeter for that experience. She was a teacher, and is a sweet and giving person, as is Paul, who dedicated his career to people with mental disabilities. Now, in retirement, he is a rather accomplished artist. I cannot say enough good things about these two fine people.

Sunday afternoon, after a tour of the city, a visit to the cathedral to get our credentials stamped, and lunch cooked by Beatrice, they drive us back to Calais, near to where they picked us up. 
We begin our march through France from in front of Rodin's Burghers of Calais in situ. I enjoyed the next few days, the small country roads, the fields, and the vistas, not very different from what we experienced in England. Each gîte or chambre  d'hôte was unique and hospitable, but I want to end this post with our stay in Wisques at the little guesthouse outside the walls of the Abbey Notre Dame.
At the citadel-like abbey, home to a sisterhood of just 16, the last novice took her vows 15 years ago - religion, it seems, is no longer a growth business in France. But this Abbey holds a wonderful surprise outside its walls, a guesthouse that is every American's idea of France, presided over by the ebullient Sister Lucie, 50 years a resident at the abbey. Without her habit, she'd be mistaken for a most charming hostess of a country B&B. 
I've stayed in a number of abbeys, monasteries and parish houses during my walks and I am always struck by the obvious lack of funds these institutions must deal with. 
But in Sister Lucie's capable hands, the worn furnishings become a chic aesthetic.
Simple and comfortable, I was so taken by it that I must share more than my usual number of photos. 
The pleasant, flower emblazoned environment, was all the more special for what was to come. 
Soon after leaving, the weather turned chill and gloomy, as did my mood.  I stepped from spring to winter, for on this part of the road to Rome, ghosts stalk the wilds. I entered the region of the Somme.